My Experience with Science and Sin

I don't want to be a blog hog.. stay-at-home moms are notorious for that. Yes Gustavo, I wish I could tell you that I know exactly where the middle is on the issue. Obviously, you are an authority on organic causes of illness. I wish I was an authority on spiritual causes of illness. I did state my thoughts abruptly and hoped no one would take them as more than "my thoughts". My hope was that if someone was reading my thoughts, they would examine their own heart and see if science has urged them to regard emotions in their heart that the Bible calls sin. If not, then their conscience is clear. Jesus is so fulfilling to behold, that I don't want anyone to cloud their vision with sin. Blessed are the pure in heart, for they shall see God. Obviously, we cannot escape sin and see Jesus clearly in this life. Yet the Holy Spirit points to our unbelief as He refines us. I have found from personal experience, that I let the physical manifestations of my unbelief be an excuse for not believing. When I speak of unbelief, I mean belief in who God is that He states in His word. An example of this would be my experience with "panic disorder". Many of you might remember that I sat in the Nix's living room during Hans' bachelor party. This is because I was terrified to go anywhere without Wes. I had to quit my job and stay in bed. I was scared to walk to the other side of the room without Wes holding my hand. If I thought about deep things, I would hyperventilate and empty my bowls (nice way of putting it). The doctor gave me Zoloft and I found much relief from these symptoms. But I found that the fearful thoughts were still in my mind. I was frightened by God. I had become aware of His sovereignty and control over all things, but I did not believe that He was working for my good. My spirit was terrified of God and my body was acting out this fright. From what I understand of current neuroscience research on OCD patients, is that the adult brain is plastic and can be conformed by a nonmaterial brain. Meditation actually "resets" chemical pathways in the brain. This research is at the front of the Intelligent Design's movement to hault materialism, therefore Darwinism. (Unfortunately, I think it will also advance paganism in our culture.) Anyway, as I meditated on His Word, especially the psalms, the Holy Spirit testified to my spirit that David's perception of God was true. My mind was renewed and its medium, my brain, followed. I do not wish to help the enemy of our souls by accusing anyone of sin that is not there. Please correct me if I am wrong, but Scripture recognizes despair, fear, and anger (I name these because I have done their bidding) as rooted in unbelief. God made us to be emotional, and our emotions are at peace when they do His bidding and our minds are steadfast because we trust in Him. Isaiah 26:3
I have not been on medication for years and now understand the weight of God's power to transform through His Holy Spirit and His word. This is not because of anything I have done, but because of God's faithfulness to refine us. My experience with panic disorder produced peaceable, powerful fruits of faith. What a gift!